It’s Friday. Only I don’t get a weekend because I still struggle with “saying no” which means I make things so much harder on myself because I don’t think before I act, so my week just gets longer and longer and longer as I learn. It’s a lesson. It’s MY fault. One day I WILL learn to slow down, line up my ducks, say “No,” when appropriate and “Yes,” only when it’s good for me too.

I think saying “Yes,” and trying to help people even when I know I don’t have all the stuff I need to finish a job will make me feel better, but it makes me feel like this woman in the photo, which is how my inner co-dependent feels right now—somewhere between wanting to throw a bowling ball into a wagonload of over ripe watermelons and wanting to join a nunnery while I wait for the rapture. Either way, I’m not a happy camper.

I would go into why I’m so expressly frustrated, but let’s say it’s no one’s fault but mine. I forgot, ignored, neglected, laughed at the endless but sensible rules for taking care of one’s sanity when one is codependent, all to my own demise and frustration. So MY life sucks right now. Lessons learned after losing 40 hours of work and an entire website that would have been finished today if I’d “done the smart thing.”:

• If someone can’t be there with you while you fix their broken thing, then you are freaking insane to try to fix it alone. Just wait until they can be there.
• NEVER start ANY project without all the parts, passwords, usernames, and files. NEVER.
• Backup your work. Always. If you don’t know how, get someone to show you.
• NEVER EVER EVER buy a theme from Themeforrest.com if the creator doesn’t offer excellent, step-by-step tutorials with instructions in ENGLISH (or whatever your language dujour is).
• Walk away when things get frustrating.
• More than two cups of strong coffee will make things worse, not better.
• Screaming at inanimate objects does not help.
• Funny cat videos on YouTube does.
• Trying to give up a soda addiction and working on a complex project is bad timing no matter how you look at it.

Those are all the sucky things about my day. The best part of my day is that Rachel Cornell’s “How to make a List” program is the most ass-kicking wonderful program I have EVER taken and I cannot believe I lived this long without knowing how to make a “to-do list” that actually WORKS. It rocks. If I had actually FOLLOWED the list making instructions BEFORE I started this project, my day would have gone so much better. http://pronagger.com/the-to-do-list-program/